#MrS chapter 3

Hes having a crush on other girl. From the way te picture look seems like shes pious and generous. He was astonished just by a slight smile and an offer of an oreo cookies. That's what happen to me indeed. When the presentation was happened the one that I was waiting for is him. I don't  get it that why is he still cant see it. Its him not Alif please I have no feelings on him. Its just you all these day. You are the one that catch my eyes, grab my attention and stays in my heart for the past few days from now. It never change since then. Having your picture instead of you just making me more crazy and absurd. Well this may sounds immature but I cant wait for that BBQ Dinner. I wanna have your present. I was just wondering why is it her? The first moment I saw the picture, I was shocked. Maybe if I cant contact myself, the tears are gonna flow down the cheek. Watching you from the back. Just wanna make sure that you're there. Support you from the  back. Im teasing you just to see the smile. You look handsome and scary. Because you asked the teacher bout the way she called you ustaz. Give me goosebump at the front. Im afraid you might ended up goin out of the class. But instead a sweeet smile that you give. It was a delightful day. Gonna wait for you. Few days more to see you. I missed you already eventhough you liked her. Muchoss �� safe journey come and go ~~

#MrS chapter 2

Hes being silent all day. Not even a smile carved on his face. But in mean time his hand was pressing the keypads in his phone. Strongly said that thats his girl. Watching him from the back, keep me wondering whats in his head. Actually it is clearly shown on his face that his fucking sleepy. Everybody actually. Pity on him. Hes paying so much attention, well maybe hes not sleepy again. I hardly get  his interest in the morning. He seem to grab his true self in the evening. Seriously hes different from who he is in the morning. I like the 'eveningHim' much much more. The one who is so entertaining, has much love and gentleman. What a guy he is. Hes is surely different from other man here. I find him alot more interesting than others. Easy to differ. Someone who loves to do what he feels want to. Whenever wherever. Act snobbish but when you already become close to him hard to oppose his generosity. Clearly shown. Feels secure whenever im walking in front of him. Actually I want to meet him every single day of my life. He make my heart beat faster that it should be. #MrS muchoss ����

#MrS chapter 1

For the past few weeks I feel a little bit different whenever hes around. Feel secure but threatened at the same threatened by him actually. Idk its just that hes showing me the his true self .The one that he never show before this. Who is so patient, generous, pious, and genius. And sometimes hes being funny. Can keep my eyes off him. Its like a delight for my eyes. There's a few times I caught him trying to look at me silently. Also we always accidentally look at each other. Omigosh best moment ever. But sometimes it feels like he into my other classmates, the one that is prettier and pious than me. Hard to tell actually. Cause sometimes we're just like close friend who share the same thoughts. He has everything that I look for in a guy,well except that hes a little bit short. Thats Okay cause nobody's perfect. Nevertheless it seems to me that I can see his perfection behind it. He love to help his family. Arent that just good enough to be my MrSadoo I think I like him.  .. Like alot ~~ so long muchoss ��

Plain

Day haven't write anything in here..  been busy i guess  .. Whatever it is im getting closer with other i mean afew.  I dunno what im feeling but i think im jealous of K and S..  and sometimes i feel like being abandoned by K.  As when S didnt give him any attention he ll come to me..  but since S do,  he didnt even text me. He used to do. Which make me forget abt H for a while.  Sincerely i think i hd a crushon K .. just a lil.. bcse he always hear my thoughts and text me at times where i hope H would be tge one who text me.  H being far away. Maybe hes busy, he said so. Or maybe he has found the love of his heart. With ain there i feel unsecure , plus with the other girls that u know .. pretty.. the pic they took.  It is  a pic with girls. Im afraid he ll fall for them. Its been yrs id put the feelings for H deep down inside.  Hope that he ll rep the same thing to me soon. Theres one time where he promised to tell me and friends who his crush in class is.  Well he did and the ans just break me apart slowly in the within.  When he said that the crush was my best friend , i tried very hard to control the feelings of me  falling down in front of him.  It was covered wth smiles and laugh. The tears was actually will fall if i didnt strengthen my heart.  During the way home,  the tears finally slowly flowing down. Without anyone notice it.  The next day i cant look at his and achas face. Cse ill feel betrayed. Eventhough beyond their care,  they did. Im living with the curiosity of him being miss me,  love me or having others as his companion.it hurts.  I may look cheerful outside but vulnerable inside. I cant stand this. But i keep on saying thatt im strong and no one can beat me.  H never text me to ask whether im fine or not..  it ll always  be me who start a conves. But his care shown in the middleeof the conves . Eventhough my friends said that he gave me more attention .. well i dont think so as i still can see that he still like acha..  acha prettier, pious,generous more that me. Theres once he said that it hard to always think abt others,  from there i know he is tired of being tolerate with me . And hes quiting . I wish he will always think of me.  Whever i feel ti have a crush on guys i would think of him as i dont want to betray my love that being nurture since we become close.  Im not strong enough to let him know or we ll become awkward.  From there i choose to just keep it to myself instead of losing him forever so just let me love him and its fine as long as i know he loved as his friend.

Day 2

Woke up late. I got scrabble competition its just to get the certifi. As as long as im here there's no certificate with my name print on it hope this will be the start. Fighting. Lets win this

Day 2

Woke up late. I got scrabble competition its just to get the certifi. As as long as im here there's no certificate with my name print on it hope this will be the start. Fighting. Lets win this

Stuff

Here I was wondering will there be someone actually read this #blog. Whatever it is Im just gonna share something here. By the mean, something that is useful on daily life such fashion , cooking,  relations, friendship and such. Im not such a talker and famous like other people here who some just such a attention seeker. MG ~ ~ ouhkay im gonna quit blabbering cause its not gonna worth it to spit a lot of saliva here hahaa..  ouhkay then see ya .. Im Lass ��